My Muse,
I write this letter to my muse because I feel entrapped, lonely, and alone. Adrift in a world that no longer feels like home. I am in isolation, not just in body but in soul. I feel like I was born too late. Oh! To return to some other era, some other period in time. There is a quiet grief that haunts my days, like an echo of a forgotten song.
I see nothing but doom ahead of us, marching as we are towards ruin with eyes open and hearts half-closed. Though I walk alongside the rest, I feel myself falling behind, and yet I am sad about it. I have missed the time when I was meant to truly belong.
Might the impossibility of the endeavour to find love in its truest form, in such a short time, be the reason for our intrinsic despair? For no doubt, life has its charms, beauty, and glimpses of eternity, but it seems the playground, or rather the madhouse of hatred, the landlord as Chaos, and hatred as jester. The reigns of illusion that we are all trapped in.
“To fall in love is to create a religion that has a fallible God.” — Jorge Luis Borges, Other Inquisitions
Maybe yes, my heart yearns to return to the yesteryears, when emotions, feelings, and sympathies were genuine, and the domain of poets, writers was a product of their era. But what of now? Where emotions and feelings are not the gateways of divinity, but rather the realm of the weak. An inconvenience in a world that values performance over presence.
But why must we give in?
Why can’t we look at the stars, lie down under them, talking and dreaming?
Let’s play in the rain, dance all night, sit on top of cars & laugh with no destination in mind. Why do people say it’s all childish and fairytale dreaming?
Weren’t those the most fun phases of our lives?
Wasn’t the most cherished, most lively time of our lives, the best years of our lives…when we were children?
Why did we grow up?
Letter to my muse
“A man must first cry out that he sees no hope; in this disturbance, salvation begins. When man believes himself to be utterly lost, the light breaks.” – Martin Luther (Monk)
Letter to my muse
Let us remember…
Let us return to wonder, I pray. Let us reclaim the night of stargazing and story-spinning, of moonlight music and sunrise silence. Let us find joy again in eating strawberries from the carton, talking about nothing and yet everything.
You, my muse— you are the only one I can say this to. For you live beyond time. You remember. You still believe.
Do you hear me now? Whispering in the voids between worlds?
I don’t seek answers anymore. Only presence. Only love. Only attention. Only a mirror that reflects the shards and roses that mar my soul and heart.
I write to you because I need to feel again. Not just feel, but remember what it means to be fully alive. To run with the wolves. To soar like the birds and free fall like waterfalls. To glide like streams and sparkle like moonlight.
So hold my hand, even if only in spirit. Remind me of forgotten songs. Sit with me in the silence. Paint the sky with me in words. Teach me to feel magic again— in tea steam, in laughter, in eyes and tears.
Help me unlearn the numbness.
Help me stay soft.
In a world of chaos, my muse, you are my rebellion.
And this letter— this ache, this dreaming, it is the beginning of my return. To My Muse Era
Letter to my muse.
“Vivamus, Moriendum Est.” (Let us live, since we must die)
Letters to my muse
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